Confessions.....and a weekly link up

My confession...blog stalker right here. I always tell myself to leave comments but then think its weird some random person is leaving a comment. I'll try harder. So through this bad habit of blog stalking I came across a 5 for Friday. I love weekly link ups and have a done a few in the past. So I even though I just stumbled upon her blog today, I'm linking up with Janna at Denim & Dandelions for her 5 for Friday. This Friday, I'm going to introduce you to Urijah James, born April 25 at 2:59 in the afternoon weighing 9lbs 2ozs and 21 inches long. I've been bad at taking pictures, so here are five from his first six months of life

1.
OMG...I have forgotten how little he was. Here he is on 5/3 enjoying his blue light therapy trying to get rid of that jaundice. I hate jaundice, both boys had it and its awful having to take them back almost everyday to get a blood drawn to check the billirubin levels.

2.Part of the photo collage for Daddy's Father's Day gift in June...and just for fun here's Caleb's picture
3.
And here is a phone pic of Urijah on the bed at the river house in July celebrating his Auntie's birthday. Such a shame that I didn't take any pictures actually on the river but with two kids a diaper bag and always at least 8 people on the boat, a camera was the last thing on my mind. He only slept and ate and I do have a few other phone pics too.

4.Only picture from September, hanging out at the Sand Sport Show at the OC Fairgrounds.

5. At the Offroad Expo last weekend. I tried taking other pics but Caleb does this

His "ROCK ON" hand and not looking at camera. This is why I don't take a lot pictures right now.

Alright...back to getting things done...getting the house all ready for another busy weekend and week next week. Del Mar Mud Run tomorrow, breakfast with fam-bam and Bates Nut Farm for pumpkins on Sunday!!! AND, Justin and I's reward for completing the mud run is carne asada fries from our fave mexican taco shop! I can't wait for those on Saturday night!!!

Have a great weekend!!

A Pregnancy Vent

So little did I know that when I posted my last post (like seven months ago) I was quite possibly pregnant or would me in a few short days? Crazy! Well, the time is drawing near and soon I won't be working anymore. A little scary, not gonna lie but it will be so worth it to be home with my two boys! I can't wait!! Maybe I will even have time for more blogging? I hope so, I do like it and stalking others blogs as well. Opps, did I say that out loud? LOL, yes I think I'm notorious for blog stalking, sorry!

So now the vent...

Two weeks ago, my boss let go the girl I had trained to cover my leave. Work still doesn't know of my intentions to not come back just in case I actually have to come back (plus I want my disability that I pay into everyweek!) Even though she was told it was due to lack of work, I think it was because my boss didn't like her so she got rid of her. Now, I have a month to train a lady from the payroll department and she has no accounting experience. I do like her but I think my boss chose her because she won't question my boss. My boss is a realy piece of work! So annoyed with work that I don't even want to show up.

Another one...

We had to move. Not a fun thing to do at 7 months pregnant. But I love our smaller house with a nice backyard and patio and spa! But our old house was going into foreclosure and the landlord didn't tell us, we found out by some guy knocking on our door to offer his help in loan mods. I had left my garden flag pole in the front yard and so we drove up there to get it one afternoon and the house is for sale! That lady took our rent money and didn't pay her mortage and is now selling the house! What a bitch! But I think its all going to work out in the long run!

Well, that's it for today. This pregnant lady is done! I'll post pis of the new little guy at our house as soon as he arrives!!

Countdown

I'm not going to lie, it sucks every Monday through Friday when I have to drop Bubby off with the babysitter. It has gotten easier since he was just a wee little babe but still hard none the less. Its not fair to him that he has to spend 10 hours a day with someone while I only work an 8 hour shift. But it is what it is and some day (hopefully sooner then later) he will not have go with some one else for 10 hours. Or sit in traffic to get there and to get back home. And we can spend our days together....

As I pulled up to my babysitter's house this morning she was out watering her potted plants in her driveway and front porch. Bub gets out of the car and is happy to see her and show her his truck of the day. I put his bag inside the house and come back out to kiss him and wish him a good day. I hop back in my car and pull out of her driveay and Bubby comes running to the edge of her yard screaming "BYE MOMMA!!!!" and waving his little arm so hard! I shout out the window "BYE BUBBY! I LOVE YOU!" in return and blow him a kiss, check my rear view mirrors to make sure he runs back to the front porch and realize I don't have a baby anymore but a little boy.

So I will keep counting the days till I no longer have to be a slave to a desk and push papers around and instead be at home with the our children, doing fun things and learning new stuff and not getting juice and fruit snacks all day! Hopefully sooner then later....

Things that I'm not very good at.....

• updating my blog. Sorry, between working full time and home and trying to tackle an online class, there isn't much extra time. Very jealous of those that post once or twice a week with pictures! I envy your time management skills!
• picking out wedding pictures. Perhaps we will get our wedding album back by our first anniversary. You try to near over 1,500 pictures to 500 and 60 for prints and an album! Almost done though! So hopefully soon! And we want to purchase some bigger prints to frame!
• taking pictures. Not that I don't take bad pictures, just taking pictures in general. I only have like five pictures I took from Cabo last weekend. I will take more this weekend at the river! And hopefully post them in a timely manner!
• uploading pictures! Yes I do have tons of pictures but they sit on my camera's memory card for months! Mostly because my card is huge that I don't' need to take off pictures all the time.
• scrapbooking. I got loads of stuff for Christmas but haven't made any time to sit down and do it. But this goes hand in hand with not taking pictures, or uploading or having any extra time in general.
• visiting Chris. She's home now and I haven't been to see her once. How very bad of me! But with Caleb being sick so much this winter/spring, I didn't want to risk spreading anything to her since she is vulnerable now. Next month I want to set up a couple "dates" to visit with her for a few hours.

My iPod broke last week and do you know that you have to have an appointment to have it checked out??? Luckily my nano still works and is proving to be a good backup until I have time to actually make said appointment for the Apple genious to look at my iPod. Plus I have like 20 old cd's in my car that are getting replayed. Maybe I should just look into getting my satelite radio working again for my car.

And a Caleb update: We have hit the terrible twos! Meltdowns happen at least twice every night! Doctor said we should try to get him to stop sucking his thumb now so that is going pretty good. Learning new words everyday and is a typical boy. If you lay on the floor he likes to fall on your stomach or back. He says "Ready? One, two..." then goes for it. He has no fear of anything! Swim class is going great! I like that he isn't afraid of the water, I saw another class before his and the boys would dive underwater for toys. It was still the parent and me class so the boys couldn't be older then 3. Can't wait till Caleb can do that to!! He already kicks under water when I pass him to the instructor underwater. He will have fun at the river this weekend! First time for us this season!

Can't fix stupid.....

Wow, do I feel dumb! And by dumb, I mean DUM. I can't believe that in my post from THURSDAY, I misspelled THURSDAY not once but TWICE! I guess next time I shouldn't rush through my post trying to finish it before I leave work.

Anyways, I wanted to apologize to the few family and friends that read this blog and expect pictures. Yeah, picture taking has not been on my list of priorities lately. Mainly because we haven't done much but yet never seem like we are at home. It's March and my Christmas decorations are skewed all over our spare bedroom still. But that can't last for much longer because we finally bought our BED!!! So our bed right now will go into the spare room and the box spring and frame in that room will get junked. I can't wait for Friday when it gets delivered! Friday is also the day when I get my wisdom teeth yanked out of my head. Oh the pain will finally be gone. The things I look forward to now as an adult....new bed and no more wisdom teeth.

Have a great week everyone!

Three for Thrusday

This blog carnival is truly as easy as it sounds...Each week, The (Un)Experienced Mom and I will pick a category, then ask you to share your Top 3 thoughts on it. We hope you'll play along with us!

This week, we want to know...

What are your Top 3 favorite things about spring?

3.) Warmer weather! I love wearing my uggs, but I'm so ready to get pedis and wear flippy flops! Beyond ready! I'm tired of wearing jeans! I want to wear my capris, shorts, skirts, dresses, dare I say...bikinis! Not going to happen this weekend when I'm all bundled up on the slopes for snowboard lessons. (Thank you hunny, I look forward to being sore for a whole week just to hang out with you! Maybe next time we can go to Glen Ivy when we want a date day???)

2.) Strawberries. Probably one of the reasons I will never leave Californai, fresh picked strawberries. I hate paying the (gasp!!!) $5.00 for a pound, picked in Mexico strawberries! Soon they will be cheap and I can buy a flat and eat them all day long instead of savoring a few in my yogurt in the mornings.

1.) MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! Well, not all mine anymore! All thanks to that little guy up at the top of the post. (Seriously, why doesn't blogger work properly for me at work??? I can't for the life of me get the picture down here!!!!) Yes, he came in all in hurry almost two years ago on my birthday and took all my glory. But I'll share, he's too darn cute not too! Plannig on taking the trailer down to the beach to spend the day and have a bonfire at night the Saturday after our birthday! But for my birthday, I get to join two wonderful girls for an overnight trip to Vegas to MUSE!!!! 3 crazy girls in Vegas, no husbands, no kids, no dogs.....we might leave it burnt down to the ground!

Thanks Elizabeth and the (Un)Experience Mom for the Thrusday Meme!

Excuses, Excuses

Truthful Tuesday time and Elizabeth's has a good question for today......

What's the best excuse you've ever used to get out of an obligation, like work, school, or chores? (And did you get away with it?)

Once I read the question I already knew my answer. It just happens to be the same answer Elizabeth went with too - Sick baby and no sleep for mom excuse!

I may or may not over use this excuse. But it works because technically YOU aren't sick so there is no faking it the next day! I usually say teething and he didn't sleep but I do mix it up and say sick too. It's fun to stay home with Bubby and play, go to the park, do a little Target shopping during the week day when only other SAHM are there. Even get to watch a little daytime TV when he goes down for a nap.

I've also used the "been in the bathroom all night" excuse too. Every body's been there and understands what you mean but nobody really asks questions. Perfect for getting out of work on a Monday, blame it on the food at a new restaurant you tried over the weekend.

I guess you can say I play hookie a lot, before Justin and I had Caleb we would call in sick together, then go to the beach with the dog for the day.....oh how I wish I could have one of those days again! My job has never been my life and I do have a very strong work ethic but sometimes you just need a break and have some fun during the week when everyone else is at work!

Round Two

Time for my second attempt at Mama M's Friday meme 5 question Friday(http://www.fivecrookedhalos.blogspot.com/). Clinky on her link for all the info!

Here we go....
1. What is better, growing old with out money or dying young and wealthy?
What I'm doing right now...growing old without money! Mitch Albom's book Have a Little Faith had a great theory about this: When a man has money and can buy whatever he wants, what does he do? He only wants more...which eventually leads to destruction. But by being thankful for what you have, you are richer then the wealthiest man. There was more to the whole story, I think it was my favorite part of the book! Pick up this book! Regardless of what your religion is, I think everyone can understand the message.
2. Who takes out the garbage at your house?
JUSTIN! Except I will when he is working, like today, in the rain. He told me to do last night but with the wind howling like it was last night, I was not going outside! Plus, our house faces a lake, and our street is very dark at night, which scares me to death! It was better since all the trash cans that were put out last night had blown over and now my street looks like a dump.
3. Have you ever had the same dream many times?
I'm not sure, I do have a dream that feels like I'm falling and before I hit the ground, I wake up felling like I fell into my bed. But I only remember falling and it's so fast. I do often wake up from dreams and think "My, that sure did feel reality!" only for months to past and something happens that makes me say "Wow, this feels like I've done this before" realizing that I had an eerily similar dream of the same event.
4. Can you play a musical instrument?
Nope, can't even sing! I was not blessed with any musical ability at all.
5. If you owned your own store, what would you sell?
I would love to open a store dedicated to boys clothes. I'm sorry but I detest all the boy baby clothes! Blues with trains and fire engines and footballs and baseballs! Yuck! That is not my taste at all! As Bubby is getting bigger, the clothes are getting better but not by much! I would like to open a store with skater styles clothes for a newborn through school aged boys. Maybe someday I'll learn how to sew so I can make my own clothes!

Just let go....

How has motherhood taught you to let go?

http://www.reallygoodmom.com/books/i-was-a-really-good-mom-before-i-had-kids/

When I returned to work, a coworker, whose daughter recently gave birth also, let me borrow this book to read. I immediatly stopped comparing myself to other moms, new and old. I realized that I am not a "perfect" Ami so how can I be the "perfect" mom (and to-be wife at that time). Instead, I realize that I can do all that I can do and that's all I can do. I let go of cleaning the house every weekend. I used to spend Saturday or Sunday mornings cleaning before Caleb, and if we weren't home I'd do it during the week after work. Now, I don't have time to clean during the week (nor do I want to after my commute and working all day and cooking dinner) so I make sure the kitchen is always wiped down after dinner and Justin will vaccum up the dog hair where she lays all day. On the weekends (when we are home) Justin and I tag team the house, with him vaccuming, mopping and helping with laudry, and I clean the kitchen, bathrooms, dust and laundry. Usually with a couple of hours we are done and can enjoy our weekend. And if we are going away for the weekend or have plans, well the house will have to wait. My family is way more important.

Five Questions Friday

Trying out Five Question Friday from Mama M http://www.fivecrookedhalos.blogspot.com/ (I hate that I can't change that at work, but I guess I shouldn't be blogging at work, right?) since I haven't had time to do a Truthful Tuesday the past couple weeks. So here it goes....
Questions for 1/15/10:
1. Worst trouble you ever got into as a teenager?
Bad grades??? What can I say, I was a good kid!
2. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night please! I would love to stay up to midnight but since I have to get up so I early, I can't. Which then to me into a grumpy morning person till about an hour after I get to work. Pretty good on the weekends, unless Justin wakes up at 6 am since he is a morning person.
3. Are you a one-handed or a two-handed Texter?
Two hands for sure, it's easier that way on my Blackberry. But when I'm driving its one handed, but it's illegal so I don't do that ;)!
4. Democrat, Republican, or Independent..or maybe even Green Party (whatever that is).
Can I say none of the above??? I really hate politics and politicians. I wish they would support the actual voters instead the companies that supply them with money. They are all out for their own necks. I liked Ron Paul, who ran for the republican nominee for president, but he didn't get far. Hope he tries again!
5. Are you a pet person?
Yes! Marlie was our first child. Even though she is from Justin's first marriage (does that make her my step-daughter?) I still consider her my dog. We want another dog but Marlie is just so darn good that we don't want to go through the puppy phase! And I want a cat! Justin says he'll train Marlie to eat it. Maybe someday! I think I can only handle cats and dogs though. I had a lizard as a kid but it died. Feeding it crickets was kind of disgusting!

So that wasn't too bad, let's see if I remember to do this again next week!

DELIGHT in the new year

So, I've seen over on other bloggers about picking out a word for the year. I thought that it was a cool idea. I had a couple words in mind but yesterday I stumbled upon the word DELIGHT. I looked it up (I know what it means but wanted the exact definition, people!) and the verb definition seemed so fitting - make happy, experience happiness. Now I'm not depressed or anything like that. I need to make sure to delight myself every once in awhile--pedicures, craft time, shopping, lunch with girlfriends sans children and husbands. As a mom I want to make sure to delight Caleb and enjoy time with him even if that means the dinner dishes get done another day just so I can sit in the living room floor and play cars with him. Making sure he is healthy and happy is my #1 priority. As a wife, well Justin should be delighted enough that I married him right? Okay, okay maybe not enough but we need to delight ourselves with more date nights and going snowboarding, something he promised me that we will do since I have never been. But really just to experience happiness.

Do you?

Truthful Tuesday time! And this week's question is good!

Is there a Santa Claus?

Last week I heard this saying "There's a time in every man's life that he believes in Santa Claus, a time he doesn't believe, and a time he becomes Santa Claus." I think Elizabeth's answer was great. I will teach my child to believe in Santa Claus for as long as he lives because that is the spirit of generosity. I think a great example comes from something that happened to my brother yesterday. He went through the Starbucks drive thru, ordered a drink, went to window to pay and get the drink only to find out that the car in front of him paid for his order. Generosity and kindness right there.

So you can't tell me that there is no St. Nick. I believe and always will!

Christmas Spirit

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Nightmare before Christmas?

This week's question.......

Do you believe in ghosts?

Kinda a spooky question for the holiday season if you ask me but I guess I'll still play along.

Nope, don't believe in ghosts. And that's all I have to say about that!

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Truthful Tuesday

"What do you really want for Christmas that money can't buy?"

Well, since I've started this post at 7:50am and it's now 9:50am, looked at a few other peoples post to see what they say but my mind has been thinking about Chris.

For those of you who don't know, my very close friend Chris Franks was in a terrible accident in September. While in her husband's truck, she was leaning from the passenger side over the center console and into the driver side trying to give her adult daughter a kiss goodnight when she slipped and slid out the door, landed on her head on the grass. She was rushed to the hospital where it was discovered she had broken her C1 and C2 vertebrae. She is now paralyzed from the neck down. She still needs a ventilator to breathe but is making great progress and is now in a rehab facility and hopefully coming home before Christmas. (You can go to her website for more details, updates and info about her flower shop in Anaheim Hills @ http://www,caringbridge.com/chrisfranks)

So my wish.....is for her. Wanting some type of miracle that would be able to repair the damaged caused and she will be able to talk, walk, and live like the way she is used to. But that is not going to happen. So I wish that the doctors will release her and she can be able to spend the holidays resting at home, where she and her family want to be. See, her family is pretty much demanding that she be released since she will be doing the same things at home and will be having nurses and pt's coming in anyways, so why not have her home sooner then later.

My only other wish seems to be going to happen too! For many years, being a child of divorced parents, I've always run around going to many different places on Christmas. And once I moved in with Justin, his family was included too. So this year, I wanted to spend all Christmas Day at our house, opening presents with Caleb in the morning and having both of our families over for dinner. I know that this can't happen every year and that it will be hard to keep the same traditions with having 4 sets of parents between Justin and I just once I didn't want to do all the running around. It defeats the purpose of the spirit of Christmas when we have to drive from Elsinore, to Corona, to Oceanside, to whereever else then finally home. Well, Justin's dad finally said they will be coming over! I'm so excited! To have everyone over and make dinner, it will be good times. Plus, our house is finally big enough to have everyone over and be comfortable. So let the planning begin!

11 this morning....

So, my employer let the accounts receivable clerk go last Friday( I'll call her L). I was very upset about this decision and, although I didn't work directly with L and not trained in her position, I felt her supervisor told lies to human resources that led to L being let go. My company has slowed down considerably in the past few months and have had to let under performing field labors go but L was a very diligent worker and the company just threw that away.

I was not looking forward to coming into work today at all since I share an office with the accounts receivable department. I didn't want to face the a/r manager (I'll call her T) at all that I told myself I would not talk to her at all today. Not that I would be rude to T but that just because we were in the same office, didn't mean that we have to be besties. I was holding up pretty good to my "just sit and your desk and mind your own business" attitude until about 11 this morning. That's when everything changed.

I told Justin on Friday that if my supervisors came to me and wanted me to help with a/r I would reject it immediately. I didn't want to work under T; she is the most negative person I've ever met and I'm getting tired of all of it. It brings me down listening to her complain about everything!

So this morning about 11 am, my supervisor asked to speak with me with another supervisor. So I enter the conference and my two supervisors and T are in there waiting for me. And my heart sinks. They pretty much tell me that I get to be trained in T's position and I am to train T in my position so that when T is on maternity leave, I will handle her desk. This is the point where I was suppose to stand up and say "NO! T is an awful supervisor! I can't work with her! I don't want this position! T lied about L! L stood her ground and was tired of being bossed around by T and should not have been fired for that! Why does T get to say when L goes to lunch? We all go at various times as long as we are back in our allotted time? T is always late but tattles on L? She's knows L was good and was threatened so she made things seem worse! T had a huge smile on her face, very much like the Grinch did when he stole Christmas, while L packed up her personal belongings! But the Grinch changed!!!! T will never change!!!! NO!!! Can't do it!"

But I didn't. Instead, I smiled and said "I would love to, it would be a great challenge and I'm ready to learn something new with this company."

What's wrong with me! I knew this was going to happen and I practice my speech (or vent) in my head all weekend long. But with T being in the conference room it threw me off. Plus, I wasn't asked if this was something I wanted to do or given time to think about it.

Our safety manager came in this morning and was all cheery. He said "The sun is still shining. It's just on top of the clouds!" At the time I thought that he is the weirdest person here. But after 11 am I know that I was suppose to hear that. The next few months might be cloudy and rainy but the sun is still shining. And once T goes on maternity leave maybe there will be rainbow.....

Would you???

So Elizabeth does this this question thing every Tuesday. I think I might start answering them. This week will be my first week.

Would you get a boob job?

Ami's TRUTHFUL answer.....

YES!!!!!

In fact, I can't wait for it!!! Having a baby and breastfeeding has caused my girls to be old ladies and I am no old lady yet! I'm hoping that for my 30th birthday I can get an updated pair. Granted if I've had our second and final child and done breastfeeding. I think that implants have come along away and you won't look like a bimbo with a pair of fake boobs. My step mom finally got a boob job a few years ago and you can't even tell, wouldn't even know, even in a bathing suit that they are fake. Her girls look incredibly natural. I so look forward to the day that I can put on a cute tank top and not have to worry about my bra peeking out or buying uncomfortable under wire bras just for the support. I guess I better hurry up and have the next kid.....

Edit....

I'm sure I should have uploaded all the pictures from Halloween through our trek across the divide and back for Thanksgiving last night while Justin worked BUT that didn't happen. And it probably won't happen anytime tonight because it is tree trimming tonight, tomorrow is gym (if my partner can make it ;)) so maybe by the end of the week or Sunday when Justin has another night outage. I'm going with Sunday!

thankful

Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes of which all men have some.--Charles Dickens

So it's a week from Thanksgiving and this season I'm especially feeling thankful for everything I have. Maybe it's because of the economy we are in right now and I know how lucky Justin and I both are for having our jobs, our house, our vehicles which many are losing right now. Maybe it's because I'm still on a high from getting married and from our honeymoon. Maybe it's from the miracle for this boy and his family here --> http://www.mycharmingkids.net/ which has given me hope and faith that all things are possible. Maybe it's realizing from Chris' accident what I take for granted and how strong and determined she and her family are which is something for myself to strive to do. Or maybe it's because I'm just getting that much older and wiser. Whatever it is, I like it. I'm getting excited to make a run to Colorado next Tuesday for Thanksgiving. It will be a lot of work this weekend packing and making sure I haven't forgotten anything for Bubby. But it will be so nice to see Vicki and Robin and spend Thanksgiving with them, something that will not probably happen very often. Going to Colorado also means that we will be bringing back the cab for the new prerunner! Justin has been doing a great job of parting out the old truck but its still in the garage. Looks like I will have to park my car outside for a while until he finishes it up!

Lord,
Thank You for this sink of dirty dishes, we have good food to eat. Thank You for this pile of dirty laundry, we have nice clothes to wear. I'd like to thank You for these unmade beds, they were all comfortable last night. My thanks for this bathroom, complete with splattered mirror, soggy towels, and grimy sink -- it's still very convenient. Thank You for this finger-smudged refrigerator that needs defrosting so badly - it has served us faithfully for a long time and inside are cool drinks and enough leftovers for another meal. Thank You for this oven that must be cleaned -- it has baked us many good things through the years. Our whole family is grateful for that tall grass that needs mowing -- we all enjoy our private yard. Thank You for that slamming screen door -- the children are healthy and able to run and play. Lord, the presence of all these chores awaiting me says that You have richly blessed this family. I shall do them all cheerfully and gratefully.
Amen.

19 months

On Saturday, Justin and I took Caleb for his 19 months and Christmas pictures. We were suppose to go on Wednesday, but Caleb was sick and we actually debated even going on Saturday. Although it was a long wait because of a large family before us (five children under 10 and the mother was pregnant!!!) we got a few good ones and that is all we really need to give to the grandparents for Christmas!!!

Always playing with a car!



Cute picture, except for the snot from crying!

Hopefully next year I can use our new camera and take our own pictures. I would have liked to have had a little Christmas flair but the Christmas backdrop was awful! I'm talking 70's family Christmas portrait awful here! I just need to learn to how to edit the pictures and then I could totally do my own! And find the time to do it!